Life is just one big ball of denial

So, even though I haven’t been posting I am still working my way toward normal eating. I have recently rededicated myself to trying to make progress. Up until a couple of weeks ago I’ve basically been trying half-heartedly and I haven’t gained very much, maybe a few pounds. In a way that is reassuring but I know I won’t make progress unless I commit to this process.

For the past couple of weeks, I have been sticking to the very basic rule: Eat when I am hungry and stop when I feel satisfied. I feel like I might be able to see a little difference in my face but I don’t want to get too excited.

I had a challenging day yesterday and am feeling some residual effects today but startin up with this blog again today is a promising sign.

One of the residual effects is that this morning I went crazy about my hair! It’s annoying, too long, takes too long to dry, is fine and thick and wavy which is not a good combo. I decided that the only answer is to chop it all off! I almost made an appt but the hairdresser was booked so I made an appt for Monday. It might be a good thing. My hope is that I get it cut short, maybe to the bottom of my neck, and that will make it easier to get up and work out in the morning. We’ll see if that works.

I think I have some other issues going on and they are coming out through unconcious eating and wanting to change my hair. Is life just one big ball of denial and redirection of feelings? Seriously, what is the answer???